The Age of Awakening

Hello world. Hello people of the Earth. There's comes a time in every man and woman's life where they ask themselves "Who am I?" In fact you could even really say they wonder "What the hell am I doing with my life?" I'm at that point in my life right now. I'm 19 and often my dreams seem to dominate my thoughts- So many various dreams and visions of me living out the life my soul has always desired- A life of riches (not just referring to money, mind you) but a life full of happiness and power- That to me is a rich life. It seems that I'm at that point in my life where I'll look back years into the future and probably think to myself "Man, why did I freakin' waste my time that?" but let's be real: Life is a journey and to say that your always going to walk down the correct path, that your always going to be 100% perfect in everything you do is simply unrealistic. In fact, for every failure you learn, and for every mistake you regret you know that it's part of your life story. It made you who you are today and it can't be all that bad- Considering your still alive and well reading this - You must have done something right. I mean at least your not dead. ^_^;

It's frustrating to be in this maze I'm in right now in my life. It's like I'm not really positive what path I want to take, I mean I know what I generally desire in life - Happiness, and all that good stuff that a lot of you like and cherish. That's all good- The hard part is deciding what you want to do with the gifts you have within you. I really believe that within all of us is a gift, that gift can be anything really- An amplitude for mathmatics, a passion for music, a deep love for writing if your like me. Sometimes, we ask ourselves "What would I be happiest doing?" "What was I really born to do"

I don't think you can say any of us were born to do anything. We didn't just get to where we are today through genetics. Your genetics don't define you- Your upbringing, your schools and the people around you kind of shape you to some extent. I guess you can kinda say I'm writing this blog just kinda wishing that this whole frustrating maze would just end! That I would finally AWAKEN to what I love to do - something that really can change my life. I thought to myself that maybe music is what I ought to do. Well, to be quite honest, I don't know how to play any instruments but I could certainly learn and teach myself if I was dedicated. (Of course it would be far easier to learn off someone else.)

So that kinda got me thinking a little. Seeing all the lights, seeing the crowds and using my creative talent to produce music- sing to the world with all my hearts content and love every minute of it. Problem is, I don't have the voice... I mean I wish I had a voice that would send goosebumps down your soul when I sing but I just don't. So maybe I wasn't born to sing and maybe this dream is nothing more than your average young guy or gal's dream of "I wanna be a rockstar!!!"

Yeah I'm one in a gajillion with that dream- Good luck to me and everyone else with that. But... when ya think about it... there is quite a few big shots out there, celebrities we'll call them if we will that really surprised a lot of people. I mean these people are no different than you and me. Like me and you- They had a dream. A dream of offering their talent to the world and they probably thought to themselves "Why don't I give it a shot, Why don't I try the impossible" and they made what was once thought an impossible, unrealistic dream to strangers around them a reality. Their reality is often the result of determination and that old fashioned mantra ya here from time to time "Never give up"

Sorry if I sound like a bit of a broken record here from blog to blog. I know I'm not the best blogger out there, I know I hardly have a following and that these words may go unheard- but so what? I have a dream. A dream so grand that you'll never be able to touch it because it is bleeding inside of my soul and it's a fire I'll never stop feed. This burning passion of mine is not a clear concrete goal- I've said in past goals that I've wanted to be a celebrity blogger and now I'm saying I'm really not so sure what I want to do. So what? I mean... I could just say "Screw this" throw in the towel and give up blogging because I have a small following and all that jazz. That's not who I am and it's never going to be who I am.

Ya know, If you didn't know- There's a trace of American Indian blood in me. That's right one of my great ancestors was pure blooded American Indian. Were some of the toughest fighters this country has ever known. We don't fall nor flinch to any challenge before us- We fight till we die. Heritage doesn't completely define us as people, but it definitely is something to be proud of. That's life- Learning not only just about yourself but your background, your origins, the people around you- Everything all around you at this moment forms your life story and no one can ever take that away from you. Your living but a mere paragraph or page in your life right now. Ya never really know what could be around the corner.

As time changes so do people. The Age of Awakening is before many of us. The moment in time where the light bulb above your noggin goes EUREKA! and then you experience something in your life that changes the whole entire course of your life leading you in the right direction. Ya know, it's crazy to say someone's life could change overnight but it often does happen. Ya know, maybe the title of this blog is a little inaccurate for all the info I'm pouring out ya- I mean when ya think about it- There's many "Age's of Awakening" in your life.

10 years from now I'll look back on this blog and say to myself "I wouldn't write what I did then, today" Such is life... Change.... Change.... Change.... Yet some things just never change... Like the tree's around us, the sun's gleaming rise in the morning.... time, time time.

Time and time again I dream of what could be. What I want it to be- but the truth is- It doesn't always come about to be when you want it to happen and sometimes ya just gotta try something different in order to achieve your dreams and get to where ya wanna be going. If the path your on today isn't working - Change it. Sure it's never to late to achieve your dreams from 1-109 but lemme assure you that it's better earlier than late.

I conclude this blog with one little piece of advice that I hope all of you will take to heart in present day and in the future.... Don't give up. Never give up. You can't afford to give up. What you just might need to do is... Think different. Think beyond what's already known... take the unbeaten path... take a little risk... and see where it may lead... failure or riches or crimes and stiches? (Little rhyme there, lol) Just keep walking about! Sooner or later those who think they can... WILL KICK ASS AND TAKE NAMES SO DONT THINK YOU CAN'T

Don't be a mime it ain't a crime to be different. It ain't a crime to say "Why don't I just change the world" In fact, it's pure genius. Let's change the world... Today. =)